July 8, 2015
When you read “Fitness Funk”, you may be thinking of that smell that your workout clothes get after about 6 months of working out in them, but that’s not what I’m talking about. Although, putting vinegar in with the detergent will help keep that from happening (just saying). What I’m talking about with fitness funk is what a I’ve been dealing with since fracturing my arm and losing my uncle. Now that I’m thinking about it, it could be just called “life funk”, which is probably more relatable to most of you.
So what is it?
It’s that time in your life when you just don’t feel like yourself and life’s obstacles seem to be coming at you at 100 mph. It’s also one of the most dangerous places to be. It’s what got most of you into the dark place a lot of you may be in, which led to being where you are now which is unhappy.
Most of the time when we encounter someone overweight or needing to make a change, there’s a lot of “un-happiness” involved that got them there. Whether it’s from overworked and busy life schedule, it all leads down the same slippery slope. It comes with no warning and by the time you realize it’s here, it’s too late to avoid it. My funk has been a little different, when I hurt my arm almost 2 months ago, it has kept me from being able to play tennis and do ANY kind of resistance training. That for me is a bad combination. Working out is a stress reliever for me, tennis has become a love for me, when you take those away it makes Todd a very sad boy. Then you add in the loss of my uncle 2 weeks ago, it gets darker.
So what’s the point in all this?
For starters, we all have funks, it’s what you do with it that counts. It’s whether you wallow in it and let it become a black hole in your life that starts to take up permanent stake in your life, or if you claw and fight your way out of it. For me it made me somewhat depressed and not act like myself around Alisha and I found myself pulling away from the social scene and friends. I’ve been putting on that fake persona with everyone else but knowing something wasn’t right, then a friend of mine told me that when it happens it forces you to examine things and re-focus. So I did.
For me it’s made me appreciate the lifestyle that I live and made me realize how important it is to take care of yourself and stay healthy and prevent injury. It also made me focus on my daughter and wife more and realize how important they are and that I need to make the most of my time with them. It made my dad and I reconnect in the last couple of weeks after losing a brother and an uncle and how much he and I need to appreciate the time we have together. It’s made me realize how important having those things in my life are.
Don’t get me wrong, from a workout standpoint doing strictly cardio workouts has been fine, but it’s boring after a while and it’s not me, it’s not what my body responds to, it’s not what makes me happy and allows me to relieve stress. I talk all the time about finding your “soul” workout (and that was before the whole Soul nickname came to be with Shaun), that workout or type of working out that makes you feel like you’re living in that space where you belong. But I’ve just accepted that there’s things I can’t do until the arm is healed, much like those of you who have to modify feel when you see us or people in the videos doing things you can’t do. It reminds me of how I felt when I was 255 lbs. and couldn’t do a pull up to save my life.
In time things come and patience is a virtue, one I don’t have a lot of. I just want you to know that whatever you’re dealing with in your life, you’re not the only one. It’s easy to look at people and think, “Wow they got it all figured out!”. They don’t. I don’t and neither do you. Nobody does. The ones who pretend they do are the most fake of all. I want you to know that we all struggle with different things at different times, but take comfort in knowing that we are here for you and we get it. As I’m writing this I’m still not 100%, I haven’t been posting in our Challenge Groups on Facebook like I should (because of the withdrawal thing) but Alisha has picked up the load. I’m better than I was a week ago and I’ll be better on Monday when the doctor hopefully releases me and says “GO BE YOU” and I’ll be back! Until then I’m going to remind myself each day that it’s ok to struggle and embrace where you are and live today to the most no matter what.
I’ll make ya a deal, I’ll do it if you will … sound good?